Orthopedist/ PT test

So I had an appointment to day with the DOC. I'm half asleep in the waiting room, I see people with cast on there arms, and legs. I'm in here for a damn pinkie are you serious. So I'm sitting there talking to the doctor, he is touching my pinkie. He starts comparing the two, he tells me I tore the cartilage that connects the bones, you have 3 bones in your pinkie. I tell him "there isn't shit you can do for it." His response "I'm sorry no". Well I guess I have a off set pinkie for the rest of my life. Its already hard enough to pick up girls, now with this deformed pinkie it makes it that much harder. But he set me up an appointment with a therapist to do some pinkie exericse. Honestly how many ways can you move your pinkie, I think I could look it up on the Internet and figure the exercises myself. Then before I leave, he says he could give me a shot in my pinkie to help with the pain. "HAHAHA thanks but no thanks."

We had a Physical test this morning, requires you to do sit ups and push ups for 2minutes straight, then a 2 mile run. So I get down in the push up start position, I here "GO" I just start banging them out, all of a sudden I'm at 67 push ups and I'm only a minute in it. I said "what the hell" but I could have got up because I met the Army standard, but I kept going, my arms hurt so bad I just stopped counting, but there is a judge that counts for you. I get up my chest is all tight, arms all tight.

Then the sit ups, I tell the judge " hey I'm just doing the standard, so let me know when I get there." So I'm doing these sit ups, 20 seconds left I ask "how many do I have left?" his response "15" By this time I'm burnt the hell out I most have knocked out 6 of the 15. But then I was thinking he was messing with me.

The 2 mile run, my weakness. I hate running, my lower back starts hurting, its just boring to me. So I'm cruising passing everyone up, I have a good pace. So I reach a mile and my lower back starts tighten. (I need someone to massage it) I feel myself slowing down, So I put my hands on my hips and arch my back, back. I'm trying to stretch it while I run, looking like an Idiot. I would not like to say my time because its rather sorry.

But I went to the hospital to get my pinkie looked at and they had a company formation. First Sergent, called out 3 names of the 3 highest PT scores. My name being one of them, I was not there. So when I showed up to work, naturally when someone does something good everyone congrads. People start telling me I can go home, I have the day off, I had a high PT score. So I went home and took a nap.

Poor Guy

So in Iraq I decided I was going to play soccer, playing against the Iraqi Army. I never played soccer in my life. I'm a football player I played in high school I played semi pro before I joined the military. Never did I break a bone. So in this soccer game I decided I was going to play goalie. I playing pretty good blocking some shot. Then I dive (we are playing on pavementt to stop a shot. I feel this horrible pain in my left pinkie, it swelled up really quick. This happened in July, there was no point in going to the medics because there is nothing they could have done for me. So I want and got X rays done and the little guy is bent but the lady cant tell if its broken so I'm going to see a Orthopedist. The motion is limited on my pinkie, it hurts to make a fist. Not to mention my hand looks messed up out of place. I'm scared that they might have to re break it to set it straight. I'm going to be so scared, I might just leave it as is. But you will never catch me playing soccer again, I consider soccer the worlds most dangerous sport. I use to make fun of soccer players I guess it caught up to me with my broken pinkie.

My Weekend

So I went out last night, it was fun. My room mate just turned 21 at midnight so we had to break him in the right way. So we went to a place where you can bar hop till 3AM. So we all take shots, then we go to the dance floor. I see my room mate dancing with this girl, it was like watching a kid grow up. So all of us are spread through out the club doing are own thing, I see birthday boy dancing all up on this girl. Another one of my friends had this girl all over him, she said flat out to him "I want to sleep with you." I really don't know any woman that is open like that. But he is a shy guy and did not get it in with her. But honestly who is like that? Who just comes right out and says "I want to sleep with you." Damn I don't know about you but I like to work for it, make it a challenge for me at least. But I did talk to a few woman just friendly conversation, I did not try to get any numbers. I dont know why I think I would feel guilty if I did. It still doesnt feel right.

But on a side note my wife and I been talking, she wants me back. She talking about me giving up not even trying to make it work. She telling me that she made a mistake that she took me for granted. We talked on the phone, we argued on the phone. So came up with the idea of coming down to Georgia for the weekend at the end of May. Im going to see were things are at, I told her Im not saying yes but im not saying no. I dont know if its a good thing. She could mean everything that she says. But I dont know If I could ever get over what she done to me. But we are going to spend the weekend togther. Prolly get a 2 bed hotel room, maybe she going to try to run some physical game on me but ill shut it down, well atleast try. So ill let you know were we are at after the weekend. But I plan on giving her the best weekend of her life. WHY? To let her know what she will be missing the rest of her life.

The Easy Life

So I started work this past Monday after a month of leave, which was great. Now I'm back down here in Georgia, its about low 90s, its beautiful beach weather. I think I might sample the beach this weekend. But work is so boring, granted I only work 5 hours a day sitting around doing nothing. We do PT in the morning ran 4 miles today, legs kinda hurt. Then we get to go home for an hour an half to shower eat come back around 9 then leave at noon to go home. I would have to say the schedule is really easy. All we do is sit around the company talk shit on either are plans for this weekend.
I just picked up another room mate in the trailer. Now the Internet finally works on my laptop which was pissing me off the longest. But my roommate and I decided that we are not going to buy grocers, that we will just eat at the chow hall for free on the base. We take turns driving to work so we save gas which is great. I really feel like punching the guy who is raising the gas prices. But I have been lacking in the gym, I went the other day and ran on the treadmill for 2 miles and I was hurting afterwards, that month of leave doing nothing really but a hurten on my body, im not a beast like I use to be.

Its Been a While

So as of right now im still working on my divorce, why do woman have to be so dumb. But I was reading travistee blog and she recently heard from a long lost crush. I was reading about it I thought about my long lost crush, Its been years since I talked to her Im thinking 5 years. I havent seen her in the longest either. But we stopped talking to either just out of know were. But Im afraid to say it I still think about her every onces in a while. We talked only for a short year, but most people think they love someone when they sleep with them, but I never slept with her, in fact we only kissed a few times. She now is in college while im in the Army. But after all these years I wouldnt even know what to say to her, in fact how the hell would I even break the ice. In fact when I got married, I thought would I ever cheat on my wife with her. I knew it would be tough if she threw it at me. Maybe we just met at the wrong time. I will found her self coming my way again.

I been bad!!!

I feel bad I been neglecting my blog. I just been enjoying my time home with all my family and friends. I got to have breakfast with my older brothers, and it rare to have all 3 of us in the same room. I found out my brother is having a baby, his wife is 3 months pregnant, so im going to be a uncle. My oldest brother is going to the police academy im so proud of him. My littlest brother is now bigger then me. My best friend is still does not have a job after more then half a year but I love him. But these 2 pics were taken in Vegas, I had fun. Won 600 dallors one night, got pretty drunk the next, while the bartenders found out we got back from iraq so she hooked us up with shots as seen from above. Last friday I took my stepdad out to the club and we had a blast, it feels weird to drink with him becasue I never did. But im not neglecting my blog no more.

Last Saturday

So last Saturday I found someone who wanted to go out and they said they would drive there truck. So finally I got to go out and drink, so we went to Savannah. Its one of the biggest city's in this area, we went bar hopping, and I talked to a few females, but it was more like "hi how are you?" Still fells weird, like im doing something wrong. Of course everyone was giving me shit for being so shy, but when it feels right ill know what to do.



But after 3am bars closed and there was is strip club in South Carolina that everyone wanted to hit up, they dont stop serving till 6am. So we go there and its packed and there more females then males there. So I see some people that I know and they come up to me, there all happy to see me and there like come with me we have a VIP Room. So I get me a beer im sitting there bullshitten with everyone. I have this urge to give a stripper a lap dance. So Im walking around looking for the baddest stripper, I see her. So I go up to her and ask "How much is it for me to give you a lap dance?" She started laughing, she is use to giving them not reciving them. So she is like $20 for 2 songs, its just 20 dallors. So we go in to the VIP room. We are talking I asked her to lay down some rules for me, she told me don't whip my thing out, and dont obsessively touch her. So the song starts and I take my shirt off and she is sitting down and I stand over her and take her hands and and put them on my chest and rub them down to my abs. I start making my chest muscles bounce up and down. I put my head in between her legs and roll the top of my head around her area. She is just laughin, she says "I cant believe this is happening." I m sitting there humping her but yet im keeping a good distance making her feel comfortable. While all this is going down everyone is cheering for me. I would have to say that was a first for me. Even though she should have payed me for it. But it was fun.

My Video

I made this 9 min video of Iraq, Its a little bit of everyting that we did over this 15 month deployment. I made this so when I go home people will stop asking me what is Iraq like? I hate that question along with "Have you killed anyone?" You want to know what Iraq is like grab your balls and raise your right hand. Then when im home on leave people ask me "you kill anyone." I mean honesty what kind of question is that. If I want you to know I will tell you. Then when I was home on leave, people want to give me advice, and these people have no military experience, so if u havent been to Iraq dont give me Iraq advice. People who have been over there want to give me advice on things I already know. You want to know what Iraq is like watch this freakin video, its 9 mins long. Sorry about the music I added my selection is very limited.

Be Safe

After coming back from a deployment you expect Soldiers to party hard, you figure we have to make up for time lost. For the past 3 weeks we been getting nothing but safety classes, don't drink and drive basically sums it all up. They drill this in to us, use a DD call someone for a ride. Take a cab to the headquarters there is a taxi fund up there. Its so annoying but recently 1 cavalry division out of fort hood tx redeployed back home and lost 5 Soldiers in the first 75 hours of being home. This upsets me, you survive a combat zone and go home a drink and drive, and that's how all 5 of them died behind the wheel. They decided to consume alcohol and get behind the wheel, of course they crashed at a high rate of speed. My division lost 4 Soldiers when I was in Iraq, when you leave my post there is this sign that says 186 days since are last fatal accident. This is a serious problem and I'm glad that Army is trying to do something about it. I have everyone phone number in the squad, we have a obligation to call one of them up if we ever need a ride, just how I have one to pick them up. Drinking and Driving is a serious topic, you can be careless with your life but there is other people on the road that are doing the right thing. Ill admit I have driven home drunk a few times, but not anymore. All I ask is that you do not Drink and Drive.

Home

Been busy moving in to my trailer, moving my stuff from storage, going shopping, getting my cell phone, and getting drunk. I do not have internet yet, which sucks becasue I cant blog and read about blogs. But im looking for a provider. It feels semi good to be home, I do miss my wife like crazy.

Funny Times

I think we are pretty good at are job. But we make mistakes sometimes are at times we just don't care. So here the top 5 funniest moments that take place out in sector that stick out in my mind.

Doing a patrol I'm the truck commander for the lead Humvee. There is these big barriers ahead, my driver is heading right for them. I tell him to "push left," Well he doesn't push left, so the gunner and I start yelling it "PUSH LEFT" BAM!!! Hits the barrier on my side, rippen all the armour off my door and the back door, glass all over me. The drivers excuses, "I did not see it, I was to scared to drive off the road, I thought you meant go left out in to the middle of the desert." Was not funny at the time but now it is. He does not drive anymore.

Doing a raid on a house, My squad leader tells one of my team members to kick open the gate. Well he tried and bounced back almost falling to the ground, I remember . His excuse "I kicked it with the wrong leg." Right.

The Iraqi Police officer had this truck stopped in are way, so I radio back to my squad leader "hey my dismounts are getting out to get this truck out the way." Well the Humvee starts moving, I'm like "what the fuck!!!" I look right nobody is in the drivers seat. I start yelling "hey stop the Humvee!!!" Ahead of us is a dirt mound with C wire running along the top of it, I got scared. The driver tried to run in the Humvee but the door hit the back of the truck closing it. With all my gear on there is no way I'm going to climb out my seat and squeeze in to the drivers seat to step on the break. My gunner gets body armour gets caught so he is stuck. But the driver stopped the Humvee in time. I started to yell "who the hell told you to get out the Humvee." Not funny at the time, but laugh about it now.

So we ride in Bradley's (just Imagine a Tank) in the city and they drop us off so we can do are patrol. Well after 3 hours of walking around they radio us, "Hey we broke track." So we walk over there, all of us are dripping wet because its like 100 plus out and its night time. So we are were trying to put the track back on in the middle of the city. Its freakin hard with 40 pounds of gear on you. So I'm like "fuck this shit" I'm hot, hungry, and thirsty. I take all my gear off, I told my LT I did not care. Well a 3 hour patrol turned in to a damn 7 hour patrol. We ended up breaking track again that night, but this time over a sewage pipe that broke. Not funny at the time, and its still not funny.

So we are doing the big operation that was 3 days long, we were clearing out this whole town, door to door. Its July its 140 plus i been walking all day clearing home, onces again I'm hot, hungry, and thirsty. We start getting shot at, I said "fuck this" and sat down on some steps. Well my squad leader joined me to along with every other American Soldier. We just sent the Iraqi Army to go find that bum. Of course we did not find him, that's why I did not waste my time running down the road looking for him. Its was funny how we all got shot at and just walked to these steps that were in the shade.

Alpha Company

So my battalion been having these competitions these past 2 days. Well 2 days ago we played a football game of course me being a shut down corner that I am was playing. We beat the other Infantry Company in are battalion, them boys were mad, all the shit talking of course me I love running my mouth. I have this saying "70 percent of the earth is covered by water, the rest is covered by me." That's just me when I play im cocky, I talk shit. Let that other person know hey im guarding you so don't expect the ball to be thrown much at you today. Yea we won, my company is 2-0 and I did give up a touchdown, but I let him have it we were up by 1 3 with 5 seconds left. So it didn't matter to me. People in the company been callin me shut down corner.



Today they decided to have a 10 man 10 mile relay race, with all the company's in the battalion going against either. Well somehow the company commander picks 6 guys just from are platoon to run in this damn race, and Iam one of them. I did not want to run this full out mile. But I guess im one of the 10 best runners in the company. Yea I been working out but cardio takes time to build up and I just started to run a week and half ago. Last time I ran competitively was highschool track. So I made sure to drink plenty of fluids the night before the race. So all the runner are at there spots and I'm pacen back and fourth, running and jumping around trying to get psyched for the mile. Someone yells there coming. Its just one guy from another company, so im waiting and waiting. "God damn were is everyone else?" there comes my cuz sucking, I yell "hurry ur ass up I have ground to make up." By this time this guy has a 14 second lead on me. I get tagged I start to sprint, its only a mile its all heart. Im running and im already hurting. So im thinking to myself "think of something happy" so im thinking and thinking "what the fuck makes me happy I say to myself in my head." So I think of a certain girl, she reads my blog regulary, I had "Alright alright" I say to myself as I pick up my pace. :Well what do you want to do to this girl?". I imagine myself taking her out on the date, some fancy restaurant and we feed either icecream at the end. We go for a walk on the riverfront board walk I picture in my head, while we hold hands. We end up kissing, I remember saying to myself after I imagined the kiss, "There is alot more were that come from." Gay I know but im trying to keep my mind off the pain in my legs, butt, and lungs. I just imagine myself getting it in with this certain girl. Bam I see the guy that was ahead of me, def gained ground on him he was about 75 meters ahead of me but I closed the gab big time. My mile time is not what It use to be, I ran 5:50 mile, I think that is good for not running the past 8 months. We ended up winning the race by a whole minute. By the way im almost home!!!!

Where to go??

So I get a little over a month of vacation when I get home. I know its going to be good to be home. But man month of doing nothing I will get bored quick. That's why I'm thinking of taken a vacation somewhere. I Don't know where yet. Someplace I would like to go are the Philippines, and Ireland, but I have no one to go with. My family decides to leave me behind when they go on vacation to those 2 spots. But im thinking of Vegas are Hawaii. I got some peoples out there that I could stay with. I just know if I stay home for a month with out doing something ill prolly rip out my eyes. Iam a on the go guy now. Like it needs to happen now, I like to be on the move all the time. Just staying home man I can see myself getting bored really quick. I would like to travel out of country to those 2 spots, but I do not know anyone who has the money to go with me. I'm sure as hell not going by myself, that's just no fun.

Im days from home now I can smell the woman and the liquor, I want it all over me. But I elected myself is the DD that night. My reason why is you cant pick up woman if you shitfaced. So Im staying sober, I think its more important to please my sexual appetite then to get drunk. Do you blame me, sexless the past 15 months, I stay sorrounded by guys 24/7. God dammit im ready to get it in.

The board

So today was the board, I put on my new uniform, put on my new boots. Did some last minute craming, went over the NCO Creed. I was good had a little butter flys in my stomach. So Sergent Duran was representing me he goes in to the board first and talks a little about me and why I should be a Sergent. Im outside the door nervous as fuck, but im jumping around throwing punches like im going in to a boxing match. But man when I knocked on that damn door 3 times I got nervous as fuck. I stroll in there ready to handle bussiness. Bam snap to postion of attention salute the Sergent Major and say my thing and take a seat. Yes I have a problem speaking in front of people, its always been one of my things . I was nervous sweating a little bit, fucked up on a few questions, I missed a few that I knew the anwser for and I couldnt think of them to after I left. But I passed the board with score of 147 out of 150. So soon to be Sergent Bourne here soon, with less then 24 months in the miltary, man its hard being a stud sometimes. Sergent Duran couldnt believe I missed some questions that I knew the anwser to. But I would like to thank him even though he doesnt read this, he been there for me he has had faith in me, he looks out for me. I love that guy. He could write a book on me and I could write one on him. But now that the board is done with I feel alot more at ease with myself.

Nervous!!!

I head to the board tomorrow. Yes Im scared, I hate speaking in front of people, I get so nervous. Im going to pry to god tonight and ask him to help me pass this board.

TQ

So right now Im at this base called TQ, its a big base with a runway stip. Its a staging area for Marines and Soldiers and from here they push them out to there little bases. But from here we are going to be flying to Kuwait, then from there to either Ireland are Germany, then the mother fucking states. But all this is going to happen in about 2 and1/2 weeks. But when you stay on a big base you have ur pros and cons. The defac is huge but its the devil, ice cream bar OMG, they have a pizza buffet to die for. I so use to one hot meal a day now I can get 4. But the chow hall is a little less then a click away (less then 1000 meters). Also you have to travel in groups no less then 4, some Marine before we got here got in a accident becasue he was drunk, some bullshit like that. At night time we have to wear a reflector belt, yea alot of humvees and big 7 tons rolling by understandble. But they told us when we got hear stay in the right uniform. I would have to say Im one of the most undisplined soldiers in the platoon. Im always out of uniform, I hate shaving, I never have my boots bloosed, so me and big bases do not get along. I could get away with all this stuff on a platoon size base but not anymore.

Now that I have alot of free time on my hands I do PT twice a day. I go for a run at 6 in the morning somewhere between 3-5 miles and later on in the day I go to the gym. The gym is everything I wanted, all the weights all the machines I could ever dream of. Now my goal is not to get big just get cut up and tight, beach time in Georgia and in Florida is right around the corner. Plus I think Im turning in to a workout freak, and now I watch what I eat to. But I have one down side to all this, I smoke cigars like there is not tomorrow.

Whats Missing??

So I been at another base without phone are internet. But we been replaced by the Marines now, not to impressed. But everyone is in a good mood, I mean why not. Handed over are battle space, no more patorls, ops, force pro. We packed are bags and are gear and moved out of the city to another base. We have less then a month in this cursed land, so why am I not excited about going home? I should be happy but im not. No im not going to miss this place, yes some of the funniest moments of my life were over here, along with the hardest. But WHY am I not excited about going home as everyone else is. I mean man I just spent the last 14 months away from home and im not excited about going home is everyone else.

When you spend alot of time with someone you can tell if something is wrong with them. Everyone been asking me "Bourne whats wrong?" I tell them nothing is wrong. They think it has to do with my wife. How she is not going to be there when I land, I think this could be it. Im not going to lie, but Im scared like im going to feel like a part of me is missing when I land in the states. But I keep telling myself, that part of you is no more. But im going to have my momma there when I land, and I know she is going to be glad to have her baby home. She wont have to worry no more about her son. I have a damn time limit now on the computer. I hate big bases. But I wish I could write more, but I most go.

Goal Reached!!!

So I was at the other base the one that gets motared all the damn time. I get off guard Sergent Duran runs over and says "hey lets go get it in!" Which means we going to the gym. It was a shoulder and leg day. I had my I pod and the speakers blasting my gangsta music all loud and I was feeling good. So I look at Sgt Duran and say "Im going to bench 300 lbs right now." So everyone starts getting curious coming over to watch, I warm up with 225 lbs, then I put on 300 lbs. I looked at it and said "man that bitch look heavy." I started to doubt my ablities, but I look at the crowd of people I wasnt about to make a fool out of myself. My squad leader was there, my Platoon Sergent was there. I said "fuck it lets go." So I get under it lift it up off the rack, as the bar is above me im staring at it saying to myself "Get it" So I bring the bar down as I inhale, I feel the bar touch my chest. Bam!!! I give everthing I have to push it up off my chest, I feel it raising slowly as im letting out the air from my lungs. I look at the bar and I see it going up, I can hear the screams from people "get it, you got it!" When I broke the half way point I realized that I had it. I hear people screaming "whooooooooo there you go!" I got it, I racked the bar, jumped up and started to jump and run around like an idiot, but I did not care. I had a goal and I reached it. We have this wall in our gym and spray painted on it is the 300 club, well my Platoon Sergent is up there, My work out partner is, and the LT. I said to my Platoon Sergent "300 club, Bourne" Out of 37 guys only 4 of us can bench that much weight. Iam the smallest guy with my name up on that wall. I weigh 174, give a few pounds. I dont take steriods, Just a protein shake and alot of tuna, by the way im running low on, not good. 300 CLUB BOURNE

Few people I would like to thank for helping me reach my goal.
SSG Kennedy-My main workout partner, we push either in the gym. Also a time were I was depressed and all I wanted to do was sleep you brought me back.

SGT Duran- My other workout partner, you will get were Kennedy and I are at one day. You helped with my depression and I thank you for that. "IM BACK"

XWIFE-I was down and out from your actions and the choices you made. I would like to thank you for making me stronger emotionally, and physically. You gave me motivation to be a better person/man. You sent me a email saying "I havent heard from you in a while.... everything ok? Everything is fine since you left me, and there is a reason why you havent heard from me in so long.

I found myself scared

Ill be the first to admit it I do get scared when shit pops off, afterwards I find my right hand shaken. I have this sick feeling in my stomach. As everything going on I find myself fine, but its afterwards im just like "did that just happen?" Nothing really been happening in the past couple of months up till about a two weeks ago. The commander says we have the most active AO in the Al Anbar providence for the past two weeks, its not even killing season this is when insurgents are supposed to go in for the winter. Well this past week has been busy, IEDs in my platoons sector, improvised gernades, insurgents trying to over run the mayors house. The Iraqi police have enforced a curfew at 8:00. But its not the people in the city. I believe its people outside the city trying to casue all the bull, but all the roads coming in to the city have check points. The Iraqi police search all the vehicls coming into the city. My platoon has the job of manning two check points, we still have to run patrols, and pull guard at both check points. Some officer does not like our platoon. Well so Yesterday I had to go to the other check point, so the check point is closed, mayors orders. So im in the TOC , thats were the radios are. All of a sudden I hear a BOOM, I like to someone, "wow that was close". I hear one of the guard towers call up were taken "In Direct Fire" Next thing all these people take cover in the TOC. We have this camera thats sits on this tower, we see the motar rounds landing about 200 meters from in side the wire, one was 75 meters from hitting one of the guard towers dead on. So as all this is happening I call the company TOC up.

ME-Rage X Ray this is TCP 2

Rage X Ray- TCP 2 this is Rage X Ray go ahead

Me- Roger were takeing Indirect fire time now "break" Motar rounds hitting on the east side of the TCP "break" one motar round hit 50 meters from the wire "break" The other motar rounds are hitting north of the east market, approximately 75 meters off of Michigan " break" Towers and Gboss "the camera" unable to locate point of orgin "break" no caulties to report "over"

Rage X Ray said some other bull, but all that came out fast and quick as everything was happening, I found myself breaking down the information. It it important to report it to higher, communication is key. After it all happend I found my hand shaking. I think no matter how many times I go through it, Im going to find myself nervous, and shaking. I dont think its ever going to come natural to me. I tell you I see some fucked up shit, sometimes when I lay down at night I think about some of the things I see and done. I dont like to talk about it, my brother was in Afganstian, I dont think I will ever share war stories with him. If he feel the need to tell me to get it off his chest, I will listen. But most people when they tell the stories, they make it out to sound like world war 3. They make it out harder then what it really was. I tell you just how it went down. On another note my packet has been handed in to go to the board, I was like at my ERB- Enlisted Record something, it shows your whole military career. yea I have a Arcom bascially doing something outstanding.

Going to the board

So I was in the gym last night with my work out team. I work out with the Lt, a Staff Sergent, and Sergent Duran. Well Sgt Duran told me last night Im going to the board around the 20th of March. I have always had a problem speaking in front of people. The board is made up of First Sergents and Sergent Majors, basically my boss's. So now that I know Im going for sure, I started studying. I have the Army study guide on my computer, and its over 200 pages. I have to study it all. So on my free time instead of blogging I will be studying. I look foward to just getting it out of the way. So Sgt Duran told me if I volnteer to come back here with 4th birgade that I would not be going to the board. So Im just going to stay state side. That pay jump is to good to pass up. Now that I have something thats prolly going to take up most of my time, I wont be missing home as much. If I pass this board I will feel like the man, life has thrown some tough shit at me, I read about peoples problems, people tell me about there problems and I just laugh and say "thats it?"I feel like I can take on the mother fucking world, the train is back on the track. Im starting to think im coming out of the tunnel in to the light.

Someone there for me?

You ever just want someone to talk to about your problems. For 8 months of this deployment I had someone I could call. Talk to them about my problems, look to them for advice, tell them about my day. But that person being my x wife abandon me over 5 months ago. Now I feel like I have nobody to call, I feel like nobody cares what im going through. Yea I call my momma up to let her know im doing good, and remind her that im bullet and IED proof, im jk. But I guess Im just so use to having someone to talk, someone there for me, someone who loved me now its gone. somedays I would just like to call someone tell them all about my problems get it off my chest, vent. But just like that its gone. Im finding this hard to explaine, but im sure you have to know were im coming from.
But in other news we should be leaving the city we are in charge of around the 27 of FEB, which is good I guess. But from there we will move to another base and sit there for around 3 weeks doing nothing. But I would much rather be working, it makes the time go by quicker. Also there is talks about me going to the board to get promoted in the month of March. I was a team leader for most of the deployment, but politics sent down someone higher ranking then me and he replaced me. But Im a much better team leader then he is. But me going to the board if I pass I will be promoted to Sergent. With less then 2 1/2 years in the army, to be promoted that fast is really good. But what can I say im the man, wait im a stud. Not cocky just confident.
So today we had a dismount patrol, the kids asking for football, chocolate, pencil. They just keep asking and asking. The kids that dont ask I usually give them stuff. So im walking down I see this little girl, it breaks my heart the life she goes through, she is standing there and bunch of mother fuckers with guns are walking down her street, not to mention she falls asleeps to gun fire and the sounds of explosions. She will prolly be married at the ago of 15 years old and her life is over. She will be a slave, they have a saying over here for the Iraqi men "woman are for babies, men are for pleasure." I know right. But when I walked by the little girl I gave her my only pen that I had on me. The smile that she had put a smile on my face, as I continued on down the street I turned around and I see her showing the pen to her father. Now she can do her school work. Pens and Pencils are hard to come by over here. This country is a long way off, but it is alot better then what it was when I first got here.

Working Out

Hard Work at the gym

Results

My workout partner wanted me to take pics of him so he could send them to his wife. Well I told him to take a few of me so I can put it on my blog. My Lt thinks im on steriods, crazy guy I dont need that. I take protein shakes, but I mostly eat tuna. Its high on protein. Most important its good for your heart. Thats why Im so kind hearted.

Smut Meme

Rules and Regulations: Tagged or not, feel free to post it on your blog (the more the merrier). Title your post the Smut Meme, outline the rules, and tag two people when you're through. Please link to whoever you've tagged, so we can see just how smutty your readers are.Okay. Let's see how smutty I am. I was tagged by OestreBunny.


1. Chocolate or whipped cream? Whipped cream less messy.

2. Leather or PVC? Leather? How about nothing.

3.Outdoor sex or indoor sex? How about sex anywhere.

4. In the jacuzzi or in the bed? I done it in a bed to many times, I think its time to try the jacuzzi.

5. Bad sex or no sex? Bad sex, bad sex is better then no sex.

6. Dominate or be dominated? I perfer to dominate, but like to be dominated sometimes

7. Thigh highs or body stockings? I think thigh high stockings would be sexy.

8. Fast or slow? Fast, like a rappit.

9. Rough or gentle? How about both.

10. Bite or suck? Depends what spot of the body im on.

11. Role play or reality? Never really done role play, so Im going to have to try that.

12. Dirty talking: coming or going? I guess a some dirty talking is not bad.

13. Edible panties or no panties at all? No panties at all.

14. Spanking paddle or bare hand? Bare hand like to leave me hand print on that booty.

15. Landing strip or Kojak? Regardless im still going down.

16. Multiple sessions or one good fuck? Multiple sessions of good fucking.

17. Moaning or screaming? Moaning, screaming just seems to fake.

18. Three-way or no way? Id do a three way, its actually one of my goals before I die.

19. Swing or no swing? Let me see, NO SWING.

I Tag systa and revelergirl

Soon Cliff Soon!

So the battalion commander came by are base today to talk about going home. So the whole platoon was gathered around the fire and he comes rolling up. We all jump to attention, let me tell you one thing about are battalion commander, he does not like are platoon at all. Since the begnning of the deployment he has disliked us. From people not shaving, not being in the right uniform, some other things I dont want to get in to. He came up to me one time because my hair was way to long and went and told my Lt and Platoon Sergent, Bournes hair is way to long. Well he started to talk about dates when we going to be home. Now I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I still have a job to do and im going to try to keep that in my head. So the dates he put out he says he is like 90% sure we are going to be leaving around that time. So he was giving his speech and some people said somethings and he looked around at us like we had idiots written across are forehead. But when we land we have to go threw all these stupid tests that should take up to ten days. After them 10 days we get to go home, home. Where my family is, and he said you should be home before the 16th of April. That is my Bday, I dont rember the last birthday I spend home was, but im like 90% sure im going to be home for my birthday. Just typing that puts a smile to my face. I can honestly say this is the happest I been since I been here, I dont know if its becasue the end of this deployment is almost up, are I just dont care about whats going on back home. I feel real good.

Snow day #2

So It snowed onces again here, but we had heat this time. So I get off my guard shift, and I go and lay down on my bed and started jammin out to Usher, then about 20 minutes later someone comes in all covered in snow. "What the FUCK" were the first words out my mouth. So I go outside there is about 3 inches of snow all over the ground. "God damn" were the words that I kept repeating to myself, so everyone startes taking pictures again, like its the first freakin time it snowed here. So what happens when there is snow on the ground, freakin snowball fight, So me and my cuz called a truce, it was pretty dark so we ran around the humvee and pegged the first person we saw. Well it was the Platoon Sergent, "oh fuck" but he was like "ill get you back Bourne". So it was game on the snow was coming down hard we turned on the big lights and had the biggest snowball fight. All you saw were the thick snow flakes and snowballs flying in the air. One person in my squad has video footage of some of the snowball fight, ill see about getting it up tomorrow. But it was crazy, a war zone. So naturally there is 2 sides , we throwing snowballs across this open field at either. Well someone decides to run across the middle. I said to myself, "Im going to get him" So I was about 50 meters away, I zoomed him in, winged my snowball, then BAM right in his face. I did not mean to hit him in the face, So I run over and his nose is bleeding pretty bad. LOL, it was pretty funny, we have it on camera. So after about an hour of heavy running, everyone is pretty much worn out. My arm is thrown out, my elbow is throbing like a mother. So the next day snow starts melting mud all over the place just nasty. The gym is pretty much covered in snow, I was looking fowarding to going to. But we have these big tents that we got from another base, So we lay it out, and nobody knows how to put it up, WOW. We all know how to react to contact, we can land nav in the middle of the desert, but we dont know how to put up this tent, I done it onces but man that was a minute ago. But we figured something out, and its over the gym right now, so we can work it when it rains or snows now, that is good. So after we finished than another damn snowball fight, this time it was 2 hours. My elbow was hurting so bad I had to take some meds, I can throw out my arm so easy, my elbow been fucked up since freshman year of highschool. I messed it up playing football. Sometimes it hurts out of the blue, other days its good. So at night time a bunch of us sit around the fire talk about home. So they say "Bourne you find a rebound girl yet?" Now I been thinking about that for a while. I dont want to be a shady guy that uses a girl just for a rebound. I told them "I dont need rebound girl, becasue this kid is not down and out anymore." Im starting to realize that there is so much better out there for me, I blamed myself for the longest. She blamed me for her cheating on me, Some how I believed her. But I dont need a weak woman in my life, and one who brings drama and negativity in to it. When I do start talking to someone, if anything its a step up from what I had before, thats why its not a rebound. I can honestly say I dont love her anymore, im not lying to myself to make myself feel better, thats the mother freaking truth. But I tell you one thing, Ill settle down one day, when I meet that woman who I see for the first time and knocks me head over heals, just by me looking at her. Its happend to me onces a long time ago,and I havent talked to her since highschool.

50/50 Right Now

It seems to be all I can think about, should I go or just stay state side. There is a handfull of us that are considering doing it. We all were talking around the fire about it and the platoon sergent cameover, started like yelling at us. "Are you guys stupid, we just did 15 months here and you want to spend another 8 to 10 over here in baghdad." Im a realist, I know im taking a big gamble with my life going over there. I been doing my research the birgade has lost 3 people in the last 3 months, dont know how many injuried, I still do not know if they are going a year long are 15 month long deployment. But I choose the job infantry, I realize the ultimate consquences of doing this, and it doesnt faze me one bit. But the thing that gets me is trying to tell my momma and my grandmother, the two most important people in my life. My little brother told me on the phone that he hears my momma crying some nights, and hears her prying for me. That shit breaks my up. I might be able to handle another 8-10 months over here but can they handle it. I dont want to make this about me, I want to make it about my family and I. I know its my life, most times they know whats best for me. Also my platoon sergent been talking about sending me to the board when I get back, that means ill be a sergent. I know if I go to 4th birgade I will have to prove myself all over again, and I might not get my sergent as quick as I would if I just stay state side.
But on another note the rain is starting to come, its sprinking right now. I feel bad for the gunners right now getting all wet and the cold breeze. When it rains comes the damn mud lol, maybe I should just stay home. But I went to the gym today, I decided I wanted to see were I was in my quest to bench press 300 lbs. Well I throw up 285 lbs, and my partner wanted to go up to 295lbs. So I tried that and got it a quater the way up and just couldnt push any more. So Im saying I stand at 290 lbs, I know I can get that.

DECISIONS!!!

So something came down today before we went out on patrol. Our squad leader put out so things about us going home all this other bull shit. Then he was like who wants to be high speed and come back and go to 4th birgade. Well 4th birgade is already over here, So I would go back to the states. Get my physical all this other bull, I might get a month of leave and go home. Then go back to my duty station, then fly me back over to Iraq. Now im looking at a 8 month deployment, which I think is very easy. I can pay off my car like that, also the big one im not looking at getting stopped lossed. If you dont know what stoped loss is, well there is a rule if your not out of the unit 90 days prior to the deployment date, your going. Even if your supposed to be getting out, your going. Right now there is a good chance I might be getting stopped lossed. I look at it like this, Im going to be in the army no matter what. Why not just finish it out over here in Iraq make alot of money, and get out of the army when im supposed to, and not get stopped loss for a whole year in iraq.
But there is one problem, this birgade is in Baghdad. Why do you think there asking people "who wants to go to 4th birgade." There losing people over there, they need help. I have my pro and cons, right now there about equal. Alot of people are really considering it, the married guys are saying "if I wasnt married I would think about it." I dont have anything holding me back. I dont know, I know my family especially my momma would be crushed. Id lie to her tell her I have orders to go back, tell her "momma they need the best people over there and one is standing right in front of you." She would believe it becasue im a freakin stud. But man im going to miss out on so much again, but id rather be over here while im supposed to be in the army, then supposed to be home while im over here.


Pros and Cons to moving to 4th Birgade
Pros
Pay off car (big one)
Extra Money
Not get stopped lossed (big one)
Live on FOB (less force pro)
Still get leave
No field problem
Get my E-5
Might be with people I know

Cons
Death (big one)
Miss out on life
Work with Duds
Miss out on ladies (Finish some old business)
Family worried
Unknown lenght of deployment
South Baghdad
Might not be with people I know

I woke up this morning.

So when I woke up this morning, I had this crazy urge for rice crispy treats the chocolate kind. I had a purpose I was determined to go to the chow room that we have. We have these 2 boxes and there cereal in a cup, we had 2 vareity boxes. I said to myself odds are looking good for me to find the kind that I want. But I noticed the cereal had been dugged up, like someone had the some urge I had and just ran through the boxes to get the cereal they wanted. But as I was looking down I did not see the kind that I wanted, well I thought maybe there at the bottom. So I started moving the cereal cups around trying to dig my way to the bottom, I started to get a little nervous, so I went to the other box diged my way to the bottom. Nothing, what the fuck. Well I thought maybe I just missed one ill go through it again, came up empty. My heart was broken, I really wanted the rice crispy treats the chocolate kind. So I decided to dig through the box and find some Apple Jacks, I found one ok, ok. I atleast need to eat 2, there small cups, So I was diggen for another Apple Jacks after 5 minutes I couldnt even find another damn Apple Jacks. So I settled for Frosted Flakes instead. But as I was eating my cereal I remebered, one of my room mates had 4 or 5 cereal bowls of the cereal that I wanted sitting on his shelf. So I ran to the room only to have them all gone.
So theres been a big argument going on around the platoon about 911. Everyone knows were they were when they saw the planes crash in to the World Trade Center. But everyone seems to think a plane crashed in to the Pentagon. But people bring up good arguments, its the Pentagon there so many security cameras around, do you think one of the cameras would have caught the plane crashing in to the Pentagon. Also there was no plane debre from the crash. But someone said "my dad works at the Pentagon and he said a plane did crash in to the building." Yea ok he was looking out the window when it happend, and you work for the government and if they tell you a plane crashed in to the building then a plane crashed in to the building. The government is sneaky and sleezy, its like they control the minds of the American people, what they say the people believe. For me posting this blog I might have the governement after me.They probably think I know to much. Wow I was just typing this
I heard a boom, went to go check it out not in my sector. But im sure ill be out there tomorrow with the "Terp" while he asks his questions around the streets. When something happens and we go out to investagate, everyone just kind turns there heads, I know there scared but damn the quicker we find these mother fuckers the sooner we go home, the quicker we get out of the Iraqi peoples lives. You can feel it in certain parts of the city, expecially on dismount patrols. The mean stares, sometimes I feel like im on stage doing a performance, the Iraqis just stare at me like what the fuck is he doing. Sometimes I just want to be like "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU LOOKING AT!!!" in Arabic of course, but we are trying to win them over we have to be nice, hand out candy, pens, and footballs. I was trained to fight a war not to be a police officer.

The Notebook

My Cuz all the way to the left and me all the way to the right.

So I went in to the other room to see my cuz, he is really not my cousin, but we are both filipino somehow we just started calling either cousins. But he was watching a movie the "Notebook", I was like "yo thats one of my favorite movies", he said "me to". I told him I cried at the end, he said "ME TO". I was like "we supposed to be some bad mother fuckers we watch these chick flicks and cry." His response was "gangstas need to cry everyonces in a while." So I sat on his bed and we began to watch the Notebook, we had a bag of chips between us with some sprite. I havent watched the movie in years but it still remains one of my favorites. So we sitting there and someone says "you guys watching the fucking Notebook." My cuz says "Yea we watching the fucking Notebook what the fuck are you going to do." Their was no response from the ass kong who said that.

During the movie all we could talk about was falling in love, I swear we sounded like 2 females talking about falling in love. In the movie there in a boat in the swamp, there all these swans around, I turn to my cuz and say "Thats true love." I cant wait to have that feeling, they looked so happy in the movie. At the end of the movie the saddest part happens when they passaway togther in eithers arms, I felt myself getting weak and almost had a tear come down, my cuz says "Thats the way I want to go, with my wife in my arms." I think that would be a good way to go with the woman you spent your life with, the person that means the most to you in the world.

Watching the movie made me realize about todays society and how shady it is and how deceiving people can be, there to much drama, and games people play. True love is really hard to find, Im sure people love one another. But are they "IN LOVE" with one another, unconditional love. Does that even exist outside of family, Ill love my momma no matter what. Could I ever love a woman that just walks in to my life unconditionally?

I was talking to my momma on the phone and she tells me, "I feel sorry for the woman who really loves you." I was thinking about that for a while, Im not going to let anyone change who I am. I was going to go back to the states, have the mind set of getting every woman in site, like "im not going home alone tonight." But that was never me before her, and it will never be. Just tell a woman what she wants to hear so you can get between her legs. I dont want to be one of those people in todays society that makes it shady, and deceiving. I was going to let this woman change me becasue of what she did to me, but watching this movie opened up my eyes. Im determined to not let this change who I really am.

Should I get them?

So I recently bought a new car back in November, the 07 Chevy Impala SS. As displayed in the picture seen below, but that is not my actual car. But I been thinking about getting 20 in rims for my car. I know some people are like why waste your money on something stupid. But I put some rims on my car it will look so clean, heads would be turning as saying "who is driving that". Some rims that I been looking at run from $1400-$1800. Now that im single and ready to mingle, I can afford to blow a little cash. Its my money I work hard for it, they way I look at things you can replace money. But as long as you dont put yourself in debit, then its all good. But somedays im like man I really want some rims, other days Im like my car looks good with out them. But down in Georgia, where I live peoples cars get jacked all the time. One guy got his car stolen in the day time. This guy rolled up on him with a AK-47 assault rifle, and said "give me the keys." Thats why I think if you have nice things your more prone to getting jacked. If some dude rolled up on me with a AK tried to jack my car, I might do are say something stupid. Im not about to give up my car keys to anyone, expecially no freakin thug.

But today was a good day, we were the detail squad. We just clean up around the base. Nothing really to do, tomorrow we have force pro BOOOO. Cold as hell still, but we have a base heater in the room now, so I can sleep in my boxers if I want. Also rolled some dice the other day, was up like $100 dallors, then I rolled a 4 on the dice and I bet everyone, and I messed around and rolled a 7 and lost all my winnings. But im back in the gym again, went the past 2 days in a row. Im commited to making the perfect body, and to bench 300 LBS, andonly weighing 170.

So nothing really exciting today happend. I had a earlier patrol in the morning. It was cold as hell, we did a dismount patrol with Iraqi police. During patrols we put them up front, slowly but surley they are starting to take over. All we do is just support them when things get out of hands. Then we had another stupid patrol outside of the city. I hate going outside of the city, becasue every vehicle that comes in to the city gets searched by iraqi police. But when you leave the city its open game. Some ass Kong been shooting motars in to the city. So our platoon has the job of finding him. He shoots the motars about 1500-2000 meters from are base. So when he shoots a few off he leaves with the quickness. But im afraid that one night he is going to shoot some off, and leave an IED there for us. But whatever have a job todo. The pats won again, I dislike that team so much. There a bunch of cheaters, I could go all day about how they cheat. Whats worst is before they were good you did not see one pats fan in new england. All of a sudden they win a few super bowls everyone is a pats fan, bunch of bandwagon jumpers. Samething with the redsox, all of a sudden they win a worldseries,everybody has a redsox shirt of some sort. I hope the Pats go to the super bowl and lose to Brett Farve on a last minute game winning drive, that would make me very happy. On another note im doing good, the blog before was just heated moments that I was having. Im starting to realize I dont need a weak woman in my life, someone who folds when life gets tough. Im glad this happend becasue now I really know what I really want in a woman. I decided to this I pod Meme, I got it from KALI. Directions 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, iPod etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW STUPID IT SOUNDS. 1.IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? Aaliyah 4 page letter Whatever the hell that means. 2.HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF? T.I. Lets get away All about the ladies "tell them lets get away" 3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? T.I. Act II I guess I want my female partenr to do some role playing for me. 4.HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Twista Adrenaline rush I was pretty pumped today. I wanted to go out on every patrol. When I was at the gym, when I wasnt doing my exerices I was dancing. 5.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? T.I. Aint fly as me To be more fly then any other person out there 6.WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Foxy Brown/Jay Z Aint no nigga The title says it all 7.WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Krupt/Nate Dogg/Snoop Dogg Aint not fun if the homies cant have none Come out with me ill show u a good time 8.WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Ali/Kyjuan/Murphy Lee/Nelly Air Force Ones Everytime I buy shoes there usually Air force ones 9.WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? 2 Pac All about u Idunno 10.WHAT IS 2 + 2? Janet Jackson All for u Why is Janet Jackson on my Ipod 11.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR EX? Qtip All in The song should have something like hoe, cheater, slut in the title 12.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Nappy Roots All my life I guess I been waiten All my life for her 13.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Obie Trice All of my life Weird that back to back songs titles have All my life as a title 14.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Jagged Edge All out of love This is false I will never run out of love 15.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Ace Of Base All that she wants All she wants is CB 16.WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Tevin Cambell Always in my heart Dont know why this is on my ipod 17.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? Jay Z American Dreamin My hobby is to live the American Dream, what ever that is 18.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Jayz American Gangsters This is false considering im a gangster myself 19.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? Jayz/Pharrell Anything My whole life is a secret 20.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? One Republic Apologize I dont get this one

Year ago today.

Year ago today I was on my way to Iraq. Year later im still here, still sucking more then ever. When you have your mind set on a year then BAM tell you, "hey we have another 3 months to do on top of our 12." Sweet, like a year is not long enough on a soldier and his family. I missed so much this past year. I missed my brothers wedding, my friends wedding. My first annivasary but doesnt mean anything now, but it did at the time. I spent my birthday in a freakin tower, to be exact tower 3. Alot of people around here are just mad, sad, and depressed. We should be home already. If I had a dallor for everytime someone in my platoon say "man I cant wait to go home" Id be a fucking millionare. Thats all anybody wants just to go home, we dont ask for much, we dont complain, well we do. But we do what we are told, even if are lives are on the line. All we want is just to go home, to see are loved ones. I feel myself in a state of depression, Im supposed to be home, its freakin cold, the heater doesnt work in my room, some how its fucking warmer outside then it is in my room. Whats not to be depressed about. I havent been going to the gym its been to fucking cold. I cant get out of bed in the morning casue its to fucking cold. I mine as well sleep outside. Man I really could just fuck someone up right now really bad just the way I feel. I have so much anger built up in side of me, so much that it is just scary. I never felt like this before, Im usually a loving guy, easy going. Anyone that knows me will tell you. Im just so mad, filled with hatred,and so fucking depressed, I just do not know how to handle it, I cant find peace with in.
They put out some dates today about us going home, sometime in late March but before April. The company is going to be moving half of or platoon to another base across the city, and im part of that half. I think that will have to make time go by a little quicker. Plus I get out of the freakin Ice box room. But yea I type all this shit about how depressed Iam all this other crap, but there is only one thing to do "deal with it" Thats the Army way, I mean thats the only thing I can do. Thats what im going to do. The way I look at it, I get through this, I can get through anything. Life can throw whatever at me, Ill just laugh right at it.

The day after the snow storm

So I woke up around 0500 for a patrol. Yes it was still snowing, the humvee that I was in the heater barley worked. That heat wants to blast in the summer when its 140 degrees, and you cant shut it off. But it doesnt want to do that when its in the low 30s, I really dont get it. So we just did a quick patrol around are sector, I was callin it a snowpatrol. It was earlier nobody was out just driving around for a while, and the snow was still falling. Its funny becasue some guys that live in cali, texas, or just from the south that have never seen snow are freakin out. But in the middle of the night the generator went out again, so we had to go to another base to pick up the India mechanics, to fix are genartor. So while we were waiten for them we decided to have a snowball fight amongest the squad. One guy was taken a picture, and I yelled "take a picture of this bitch." I threw a snowball at him hitting the groin area. Then I feel one hit the back of my head, so I just ran to avoid more snowballs. After a 20 minute snowball fight we see someone that we know walking by, so we called a cease fire. So we hid behind the humvees and he was walking by we ran out and unleashed hell on him. He did not bother to run, he knew he was doomed from the minute he heard us screaming. So back at the platoon size base people throwing snowballs left and right, you werent safe trying to go take a piss. But what was cool people wrote in the snow "I LOVE YOU" took a picture with them beside it and sent it home to there wives. I was like man maybe I should send one to. I do miss her alot, more then before I came home. But besides the point I was going to write one "I LOVE YOU MOMMA" But I had another patrol. So I went back to my cold ass room to take a nap.
The next patrol was a dismount, we walked out from are base. By this time the sun was out and the snow was melting. The streets were full of mud and puddles, mixed with a bunch of other shit. So I was up front next to the point man, this car decided to get bold and want to test us. So he wouldnt stop but when me and the other point man raised are weapons up, took the safety off from safe to semi. He stoped, if I did shoot I was aiming for the head light, if he kept coming then the wind shield. You have to remeber your Rules of Engangment, you have to be able to tell who is hostile and who is not. When this guy was not stopping I knew he wasnt trying to kill us, he is just a shitty driver. But if he got any closer to us we would have to do are thing. You can show the insurgents how weak you are by letting a car get close to you. The next one could be a car bomb. But I went the whole day with out firing a shot, which is good.

Beauitful Day Outside!!!

Instead of typing a blog this video was made. Enjoy.

Finally I got a shower

Well today was kinda like a day off for me. We have to do a few things around the base to keep it clean. So around noon im playing my psp, somone comes in to the room. Hey we are spinning up a patrol to go take showers (we dont have showers at are base). "Shit Ill go" I said, so I grabed my assault pack, got all my shower stuff ready. Put on all my gear and grabed my peace maker, I ran to the humvee like a kid going to freakin Disney World. So we made it to the other base were the showers are, its been about a week since my last shower. Its not like you feel dirty because your used to it, but you know you are. Man that hot shower felt so good, when I washed my hair and rinsed my hear out, I could see all the sand, and dirt on the shower floor go in to the drain. I washed my body off, then I put my hands against the wall leanded my head down and let the water run down my back. Its the little things in life that I miss. Like taking a shower, cruising around in your car just casue, going out to eat. I miss my family and friends, but I also miss the little things in life that we as people take for granted.
So when I get back from taking a beauitful shower, I decide to go to the gym. My legs are still sore from the other day along with my chest. But im making a comminent to the gym and im sticking to it. Today was a back, abs and biceps day. It was dark when I was working out and freakin freezing. But after the first couple of exerices I had to get in my short sleeve shirt. But tomorrow is Force Pro, so I really wont have anything cool to talk about. But Ill think of something. Maybe write about my Xwife about how much of a hoe she is. But I find myself thinking about what to blog about next, even when im out in sector. So if anyone has anyideas let me know.

Patrol Day/Rough Day In The Dice Game

So today was a patrol day for my squad. Well I did not have to go on the first patrol that the squad had. The patrol was sechduled in the morning, well since I did not have to go I decided to go back to sleep. You take sleep when you can becasue you never know when some bull shit might pop off, keeping you out in sector for hours on end. So before the next patrol I went to the gym to workout chest and triceps. When me and my partner bench press we do reps with 225 pounds, and do all these other exerices. I can say im pretty sore right now. Well the next patrol was at night time, it was dismount patrol. (we walk) I like walking but my legs are still sore from the gym. Also its dark out, there isnt street lights here,and the only paved roads are the main ones. So much trash, pot hole , rock, other bull shit to trip over. Another thing, most Iraqi towns do not have a sewage system, so it drains out into the streets,so while your scanning the roof tops, our looking down an alley way you have to watch were you step. One person did bust his ass today, I wanted to bust out laughin and crack a joke, but I diddent but ill be sure to get him tomorrow. So on the way back I got this feeling like nobody is behind me, so I turn around to see the other guys. Their they are 100 meters behind me, so I turn around to see whats up. Well are medic has some heart condition (dont know why they let him in with it) and he was having chest pains and the power went out in the city so it was pitch black and he did not have night vision so he could not see. So we gave him a light to see, and then some fucker trips over a IED crater and twists his ankle. What the fuck is this the broke dick crew I said to them. But I yelled up to the rest of the squad and told them wait up. We made it back ok, good patrol nothing happend.
So you ever watch the rap videos and you see them on the street shooting dice. Well we do that hear, so we decided to shoot before the patrol. Well I been on a freakin losin streak for like 2 weeks now, and I cant get out of it. I think I lost a total of $400 in the last 2 weeks. One day I was up $280 and we shot later on that day and I lost it all. I even listened to 50 Cent WHY YOU LOOKING while we are shooting on my Ipod. The song starts off "I get money". How can you go wrong with that. I just keep getting my head wraped. I think im going to lay low right now not shoot for about a week let me get out of this losing phase.

My New Years Resolutions
1.Not settle down with one woman
2.To see certain people
3.Not to see certain people
4.Travel Florida
5.Go on a Cruise to the bahamas
6.Decide what im going to do when I get out of the Army
7.Twork it out with as many ladies as possible

Force Pro

Anyone that is in the Army or Marines knows what force pro is. I consider myself an All Pro at force pro. Well force pro is a guard day, basically you man the guard towers around the base. Well since I live on a platoon size base I have force pro every 2 days. You spend eight hours out of the day in a guard tower by yourself, the first shift is a four hour shift. In that four lonely hours you think about alot of things, its the only time you ever get to be alone. Of course you spank it up there, if its not to cold, like I said its the only time your alone. This morning I was thinking about Batman and I was wondering if I could handle the training that he put himself through. Also I was watching I AM LEGEND earlier in the week. When Will Smith was in Times Square I saw a Batman-Superman movie poster in the back ground. I was thinking how sweet that movie could be. Last night I was watching The Kingdom with Jamie Fox, I was thinking I could be a FBI agent, the big fire fight at towards the end, I can shoot, move , and communicate. Then I started to think about my X wife(still married but I call her that) and how much of a hoe she is started to working myself up. But I calmed down said to myself "so many ladies out there for me." Force Pro can be easy and can be tough, I fell asleep twice during guard, yea I know wrong place to fall asleep, but its not liked I planned it. It was the days before that wore me out. Since I been pulling force pro I only been shot at onces, but my guard shift was almost up so I diddent even bother to call it up because I want to go to sleep, I just warned the guy who was relieveing me.
After the guard shift I went to the gym to workout legs, shoulders, and abs. It was a good day worked up a sweat felt the burn. I been kind of shying away from the gym becasue its been to fucking cold and to windy, and are gym is located outside, with no cover "sweet". Later on after the work out I found out I have to go get weight and tape, make sure im not over weight "are you fucking serious." Im mostly all muscle, but someone is trying to look good for someone else so bunch of us have to go. Well if u care im 174 pounds 67 inches tall "all beast". Well I still have two -two hour shifts to go. Its going to be cold my feet are going to freeze along with my fingers, but I tell you one thing know one is going to breach the wire on my shift.

Let me catch u up.

Let me catch you up. January 11th 2007 I deployed to Iraq. It was tough, the hardest thing I ever had to do was say good bye to my wife. While I was in Kuwait I was selected to be a team leader in the squad. Usually team leaders have a deployment under there belt, and have more then 2 years in the Army. Well I barely had a year with my unit. I had no combat experience what so ever. So I was nervous as hell when we crossed the border. As time went on I became comfortable with my job, things were looking good. My wife was being really supportive we had a quarter of the deployment knocked down. The company was feeling good, then the bad news. Instead of 12 month deployment we have to do a 15 month deployment. You want to talk about moral getting shot the fuck down. Well we complained about it alot, but we did what we do best "deal with it". So the months went on, I became confident with my job, my squad leader and I were close. He was letting me do his job at times. I was feeling good, sucking at times but just knocking down them days. As time went on around late August I felt something wrong in my marriage, my gut was telling me my wife was cheating on me, so I asked her about it, she swore up and down that she is not. Where I was living we did not have phone are computers, so on my free time I would be like "hey I'll go on this patorl for you." I would call my wife up only to have her phone be shut off. I felt the distance. So I got to take leave in November, first day I was home I found out that my wife was "IN LOVE" with another man. WOW I could see if i deserved it, but I diddent. I let her walk all over me when I was home, not going to get in to it. But she took me for granted, she is ungrateful for the things I did for her. I thought it was going to be tough getting over her. But im coming to realize that there is so much better looking and better woman out there for me. Im a stud finding woman is not a problem for me. But it is right now becasue im in freakin Iraq. But now Im in Rutbah about to hit are year mark in iraq. I bought a Chevy Impala SS when I was home thought maybe I should treat myself. Bills missed the playoffs I think for the 7th year in a row (franchise recored) the make me want to eat my muzzle. But Ill write again soon.



I would like to thank for the Christmas cards and care packages.
Krystal/Steve
Stef/KC
Holly/CJ
Erin
Bill