Goal Reached!!!

So I was at the other base the one that gets motared all the damn time. I get off guard Sergent Duran runs over and says "hey lets go get it in!" Which means we going to the gym. It was a shoulder and leg day. I had my I pod and the speakers blasting my gangsta music all loud and I was feeling good. So I look at Sgt Duran and say "Im going to bench 300 lbs right now." So everyone starts getting curious coming over to watch, I warm up with 225 lbs, then I put on 300 lbs. I looked at it and said "man that bitch look heavy." I started to doubt my ablities, but I look at the crowd of people I wasnt about to make a fool out of myself. My squad leader was there, my Platoon Sergent was there. I said "fuck it lets go." So I get under it lift it up off the rack, as the bar is above me im staring at it saying to myself "Get it" So I bring the bar down as I inhale, I feel the bar touch my chest. Bam!!! I give everthing I have to push it up off my chest, I feel it raising slowly as im letting out the air from my lungs. I look at the bar and I see it going up, I can hear the screams from people "get it, you got it!" When I broke the half way point I realized that I had it. I hear people screaming "whooooooooo there you go!" I got it, I racked the bar, jumped up and started to jump and run around like an idiot, but I did not care. I had a goal and I reached it. We have this wall in our gym and spray painted on it is the 300 club, well my Platoon Sergent is up there, My work out partner is, and the LT. I said to my Platoon Sergent "300 club, Bourne" Out of 37 guys only 4 of us can bench that much weight. Iam the smallest guy with my name up on that wall. I weigh 174, give a few pounds. I dont take steriods, Just a protein shake and alot of tuna, by the way im running low on, not good. 300 CLUB BOURNE

Few people I would like to thank for helping me reach my goal.
SSG Kennedy-My main workout partner, we push either in the gym. Also a time were I was depressed and all I wanted to do was sleep you brought me back.

SGT Duran- My other workout partner, you will get were Kennedy and I are at one day. You helped with my depression and I thank you for that. "IM BACK"

XWIFE-I was down and out from your actions and the choices you made. I would like to thank you for making me stronger emotionally, and physically. You gave me motivation to be a better person/man. You sent me a email saying "I havent heard from you in a while.... everything ok? Everything is fine since you left me, and there is a reason why you havent heard from me in so long.

50/50 Right Now

It seems to be all I can think about, should I go or just stay state side. There is a handfull of us that are considering doing it. We all were talking around the fire about it and the platoon sergent cameover, started like yelling at us. "Are you guys stupid, we just did 15 months here and you want to spend another 8 to 10 over here in baghdad." Im a realist, I know im taking a big gamble with my life going over there. I been doing my research the birgade has lost 3 people in the last 3 months, dont know how many injuried, I still do not know if they are going a year long are 15 month long deployment. But I choose the job infantry, I realize the ultimate consquences of doing this, and it doesnt faze me one bit. But the thing that gets me is trying to tell my momma and my grandmother, the two most important people in my life. My little brother told me on the phone that he hears my momma crying some nights, and hears her prying for me. That shit breaks my up. I might be able to handle another 8-10 months over here but can they handle it. I dont want to make this about me, I want to make it about my family and I. I know its my life, most times they know whats best for me. Also my platoon sergent been talking about sending me to the board when I get back, that means ill be a sergent. I know if I go to 4th birgade I will have to prove myself all over again, and I might not get my sergent as quick as I would if I just stay state side.
But on another note the rain is starting to come, its sprinking right now. I feel bad for the gunners right now getting all wet and the cold breeze. When it rains comes the damn mud lol, maybe I should just stay home. But I went to the gym today, I decided I wanted to see were I was in my quest to bench press 300 lbs. Well I throw up 285 lbs, and my partner wanted to go up to 295lbs. So I tried that and got it a quater the way up and just couldnt push any more. So Im saying I stand at 290 lbs, I know I can get that.