This is the life I live!!

Orthopedist/ PT test

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Wed, 28 May 2008 17:26:00 +0000

So I had an appointment to day with the DOC. I'm half asleep in the waiting room, I see people with cast on there arms, and legs. I'm in here for a damn pinkie are you serious. So I'm sitting there talking to the doctor, he is touching my pinkie. He starts comparing the two, he tells me I tore the cartilage that connects the bones, you have 3 bones in your pinkie. I tell him "there isn't shit you can do for it." His response "I'm sorry no". Well I guess I have a off set pinkie for the rest of my life. Its already hard enough to pick up girls, now with this deformed pinkie it makes it that much harder. But he set me up an appointment with a therapist to do some pinkie exericse. Honestly how many ways can you move your pinkie, I think I could look it up on the Internet and figure the exercises myself. Then before I leave, he says he could give me a shot in my pinkie to help with the pain. "HAHAHA thanks but no thanks."

We had a Physical test this morning, requires you to do sit ups and push ups for 2minutes straight, then a 2 mile run. So I get down in the push up start position, I here "GO" I just start banging them out, all of a sudden I'm at 67 push ups and I'm only a minute in it. I said "what the hell" but I could have got up because I met the Army standard, but I kept going, my arms hurt so bad I just stopped counting, but there is a judge that counts for you. I get up my chest is all tight, arms all tight.

Then the sit ups, I tell the judge " hey I'm just doing the standard, so let me know when I get there." So I'm doing these sit ups, 20 seconds left I ask "how many do I have left?" his response "15" By this time I'm burnt the hell out I most have knocked out 6 of the 15. But then I was thinking he was messing with me.

The 2 mile run, my weakness. I hate running, my lower back starts hurting, its just boring to me. So I'm cruising passing everyone up, I have a good pace. So I reach a mile and my lower back starts tighten. (I need someone to massage it) I feel myself slowing down, So I put my hands on my hips and arch my back, back. I'm trying to stretch it while I run, looking like an Idiot. I would not like to say my time because its rather sorry.

But I went to the hospital to get my pinkie looked at and they had a company formation. First Sergent, called out 3 names of the 3 highest PT scores. My name being one of them, I was not there. So when I showed up to work, naturally when someone does something good everyone congrads. People start telling me I can go home, I have the day off, I had a high PT score. So I went home and took a nap.

Poor Guy

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Thu, 22 May 2008 04:15:00 +0000

So in Iraq I decided I was going to play soccer, playing against the Iraqi Army. I never played soccer in my life. I'm a football player I played in high school I played semi pro before I joined the military. Never did I break a bone. So in this soccer game I decided I was going to play goalie. I playing pretty good blocking some shot. Then I dive (we are playing on pavementt to stop a shot. I feel this horrible pain in my left pinkie, it swelled up really quick. This happened in July, there was no point in going to the medics because there is nothing they could have done for me. So I want and got X rays done and the little guy is bent but the lady cant tell if its broken so I'm going to see a Orthopedist. The motion is limited on my pinkie, it hurts to make a fist. Not to mention my hand looks messed up out of place. I'm scared that they might have to re break it to set it straight. I'm going to be so scared, I might just leave it as is. But you will never catch me playing soccer again, I consider soccer the worlds most dangerous sport. I use to make fun of soccer players I guess it caught up to me with my broken pinkie.

My Weekend

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Sun, 18 May 2008 19:50:00 +0000

So I went out last night, it was fun. My room mate just turned 21 at midnight so we had to break him in the right way. So we went to a place where you can bar hop till 3AM. So we all take shots, then we go to the dance floor. I see my room mate dancing with this girl, it was like watching a kid grow up. So all of us are spread through out the club doing are own thing, I see birthday boy dancing all up on this girl. Another one of my friends had this girl all over him, she said flat out to him "I want to sleep with you." I really don't know any woman that is open like that. But he is a shy guy and did not get it in with her. But honestly who is like that? Who just comes right out and says "I want to sleep with you." Damn I don't know about you but I like to work for it, make it a challenge for me at least. But I did talk to a few woman just friendly conversation, I did not try to get any numbers. I dont know why I think I would feel guilty if I did. It still doesnt feel right.

But on a side note my wife and I been talking, she wants me back. She talking about me giving up not even trying to make it work. She telling me that she made a mistake that she took me for granted. We talked on the phone, we argued on the phone. So came up with the idea of coming down to Georgia for the weekend at the end of May. Im going to see were things are at, I told her Im not saying yes but im not saying no. I dont know if its a good thing. She could mean everything that she says. But I dont know If I could ever get over what she done to me. But we are going to spend the weekend togther. Prolly get a 2 bed hotel room, maybe she going to try to run some physical game on me but ill shut it down, well atleast try. So ill let you know were we are at after the weekend. But I plan on giving her the best weekend of her life. WHY? To let her know what she will be missing the rest of her life.

The Easy Life

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Fri, 16 May 2008 00:07:00 +0000

So I started work this past Monday after a month of leave, which was great. Now I'm back down here in Georgia, its about low 90s, its beautiful beach weather. I think I might sample the beach this weekend. But work is so boring, granted I only work 5 hours a day sitting around doing nothing. We do PT in the morning ran 4 miles today, legs kinda hurt. Then we get to go home for an hour an half to shower eat come back around 9 then leave at noon to go home. I would have to say the schedule is really easy. All we do is sit around the company talk shit on either are plans for this weekend.
I just picked up another room mate in the trailer. Now the Internet finally works on my laptop which was pissing me off the longest. But my roommate and I decided that we are not going to buy grocers, that we will just eat at the chow hall for free on the base. We take turns driving to work so we save gas which is great. I really feel like punching the guy who is raising the gas prices. But I have been lacking in the gym, I went the other day and ran on the treadmill for 2 miles and I was hurting afterwards, that month of leave doing nothing really but a hurten on my body, im not a beast like I use to be.

Its Been a While

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Thu, 08 May 2008 15:54:00 +0000

So as of right now im still working on my divorce, why do woman have to be so dumb. But I was reading travistee blog and she recently heard from a long lost crush. I was reading about it I thought about my long lost crush, Its been years since I talked to her Im thinking 5 years. I havent seen her in the longest either. But we stopped talking to either just out of know were. But Im afraid to say it I still think about her every onces in a while. We talked only for a short year, but most people think they love someone when they sleep with them, but I never slept with her, in fact we only kissed a few times. She now is in college while im in the Army. But after all these years I wouldnt even know what to say to her, in fact how the hell would I even break the ice. In fact when I got married, I thought would I ever cheat on my wife with her. I knew it would be tough if she threw it at me. Maybe we just met at the wrong time. I will found her self coming my way again.

I been bad!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 18:08:00 +0000

I feel bad I been neglecting my blog. I just been enjoying my time home with all my family and friends. I got to have breakfast with my older brothers, and it rare to have all 3 of us in the same room. I found out my brother is having a baby, his wife is 3 months pregnant, so im going to be a uncle. My oldest brother is going to the police academy im so proud of him. My littlest brother is now bigger then me. My best friend is still does not have a job after more then half a year but I love him. But these 2 pics were taken in Vegas, I had fun. Won 600 dallors one night, got pretty drunk the next, while the bartenders found out we got back from iraq so she hooked us up with shots as seen from above. Last friday I took my stepdad out to the club and we had a blast, it feels weird to drink with him becasue I never did. But im not neglecting my blog no more.

Last Saturday

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 21:57:00 +0000

So last Saturday I found someone who wanted to go out and they said they would drive there truck. So finally I got to go out and drink, so we went to Savannah. Its one of the biggest city's in this area, we went bar hopping, and I talked to a few females, but it was more like "hi how are you?" Still fells weird, like im doing something wrong. Of course everyone was giving me shit for being so shy, but when it feels right ill know what to do.

But after 3am bars closed and there was is strip club in South Carolina that everyone wanted to hit up, they dont stop serving till 6am. So we go there and its packed and there more females then males there. So I see some people that I know and they come up to me, there all happy to see me and there like come with me we have a VIP Room. So I get me a beer im sitting there bullshitten with everyone. I have this urge to give a stripper a lap dance. So Im walking around looking for the baddest stripper, I see her. So I go up to her and ask "How much is it for me to give you a lap dance?" She started laughing, she is use to giving them not reciving them. So she is like $20 for 2 songs, its just 20 dallors. So we go in to the VIP room. We are talking I asked her to lay down some rules for me, she told me don't whip my thing out, and dont obsessively touch her. So the song starts and I take my shirt off and she is sitting down and I stand over her and take her hands and and put them on my chest and rub them down to my abs. I start making my chest muscles bounce up and down. I put my head in between her legs and roll the top of my head around her area. She is just laughin, she says "I cant believe this is happening." I m sitting there humping her but yet im keeping a good distance making her feel comfortable. While all this is going down everyone is cheering for me. I would have to say that was a first for me. Even though she should have payed me for it. But it was fun.

My Video

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 05:22:00 +0000

I made this 9 min video of Iraq, Its a little bit of everyting that we did over this 15 month deployment. I made this so when I go home people will stop asking me what is Iraq like? I hate that question along with "Have you killed anyone?" You want to know what Iraq is like grab your balls and raise your right hand. Then when im home on leave people ask me "you kill anyone." I mean honesty what kind of question is that. If I want you to know I will tell you. Then when I was home on leave, people want to give me advice, and these people have no military experience, so if u havent been to Iraq dont give me Iraq advice. People who have been over there want to give me advice on things I already know. You want to know what Iraq is like watch this freakin video, its 9 mins long. Sorry about the music I added my selection is very limited.

Be Safe

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Wed, 02 Apr 2008 00:10:00 +0000

After coming back from a deployment you expect Soldiers to party hard, you figure we have to make up for time lost. For the past 3 weeks we been getting nothing but safety classes, don't drink and drive basically sums it all up. They drill this in to us, use a DD call someone for a ride. Take a cab to the headquarters there is a taxi fund up there. Its so annoying but recently 1 cavalry division out of fort hood tx redeployed back home and lost 5 Soldiers in the first 75 hours of being home. This upsets me, you survive a combat zone and go home a drink and drive, and that's how all 5 of them died behind the wheel. They decided to consume alcohol and get behind the wheel, of course they crashed at a high rate of speed. My division lost 4 Soldiers when I was in Iraq, when you leave my post there is this sign that says 186 days since are last fatal accident. This is a serious problem and I'm glad that Army is trying to do something about it. I have everyone phone number in the squad, we have a obligation to call one of them up if we ever need a ride, just how I have one to pick them up. Drinking and Driving is a serious topic, you can be careless with your life but there is other people on the road that are doing the right thing. Ill admit I have driven home drunk a few times, but not anymore. All I ask is that you do not Drink and Drive.

Home

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 17:26:00 +0000

Been busy moving in to my trailer, moving my stuff from storage, going shopping, getting my cell phone, and getting drunk. I do not have internet yet, which sucks becasue I cant blog and read about blogs. But im looking for a provider. It feels semi good to be home, I do miss my wife like crazy.

Funny Times

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 09:09:00 +0000

I think we are pretty good at are job. But we make mistakes sometimes are at times we just don't care. So here the top 5 funniest moments that take place out in sector that stick out in my mind.

Doing a patrol I'm the truck commander for the lead Humvee. There is these big barriers ahead, my driver is heading right for them. I tell him to "push left," Well he doesn't push left, so the gunner and I start yelling it "PUSH LEFT" BAM!!! Hits the barrier on my side, rippen all the armour off my door and the back door, glass all over me. The drivers excuses, "I did not see it, I was to scared to drive off the road, I thought you meant go left out in to the middle of the desert." Was not funny at the time but now it is. He does not drive anymore.

Doing a raid on a house, My squad leader tells one of my team members to kick open the gate. Well he tried and bounced back almost falling to the ground, I remember . His excuse "I kicked it with the wrong leg." Right.

The Iraqi Police officer had this truck stopped in are way, so I radio back to my squad leader "hey my dismounts are getting out to get this truck out the way." Well the Humvee starts moving, I'm like "what the fuck!!!" I look right nobody is in the drivers seat. I start yelling "hey stop the Humvee!!!" Ahead of us is a dirt mound with C wire running along the top of it, I got scared. The driver tried to run in the Humvee but the door hit the back of the truck closing it. With all my gear on there is no way I'm going to climb out my seat and squeeze in to the drivers seat to step on the break. My gunner gets body armour gets caught so he is stuck. But the driver stopped the Humvee in time. I started to yell "who the hell told you to get out the Humvee." Not funny at the time, but laugh about it now.

So we ride in Bradley's (just Imagine a Tank) in the city and they drop us off so we can do are patrol. Well after 3 hours of walking around they radio us, "Hey we broke track." So we walk over there, all of us are dripping wet because its like 100 plus out and its night time. So we are were trying to put the track back on in the middle of the city. Its freakin hard with 40 pounds of gear on you. So I'm like "fuck this shit" I'm hot, hungry, and thirsty. I take all my gear off, I told my LT I did not care. Well a 3 hour patrol turned in to a damn 7 hour patrol. We ended up breaking track again that night, but this time over a sewage pipe that broke. Not funny at the time, and its still not funny.

So we are doing the big operation that was 3 days long, we were clearing out this whole town, door to door. Its July its 140 plus i been walking all day clearing home, onces again I'm hot, hungry, and thirsty. We start getting shot at, I said "fuck this" and sat down on some steps. Well my squad leader joined me to along with every other American Soldier. We just sent the Iraqi Army to go find that bum. Of course we did not find him, that's why I did not waste my time running down the road looking for him. Its was funny how we all got shot at and just walked to these steps that were in the shade.

Alpha Company

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 08:46:00 +0000

So my battalion been having these competitions these past 2 days. Well 2 days ago we played a football game of course me being a shut down corner that I am was playing. We beat the other Infantry Company in are battalion, them boys were mad, all the shit talking of course me I love running my mouth. I have this saying "70 percent of the earth is covered by water, the rest is covered by me." That's just me when I play im cocky, I talk shit. Let that other person know hey im guarding you so don't expect the ball to be thrown much at you today. Yea we won, my company is 2-0 and I did give up a touchdown, but I let him have it we were up by 1 3 with 5 seconds left. So it didn't matter to me. People in the company been callin me shut down corner.

Today they decided to have a 10 man 10 mile relay race, with all the company's in the battalion going against either. Well somehow the company commander picks 6 guys just from are platoon to run in this damn race, and Iam one of them. I did not want to run this full out mile. But I guess im one of the 10 best runners in the company. Yea I been working out but cardio takes time to build up and I just started to run a week and half ago. Last time I ran competitively was highschool track. So I made sure to drink plenty of fluids the night before the race. So all the runner are at there spots and I'm pacen back and fourth, running and jumping around trying to get psyched for the mile. Someone yells there coming. Its just one guy from another company, so im waiting and waiting. "God damn were is everyone else?" there comes my cuz sucking, I yell "hurry ur ass up I have ground to make up." By this time this guy has a 14 second lead on me. I get tagged I start to sprint, its only a mile its all heart. Im running and im already hurting. So im thinking to myself "think of something happy" so im thinking and thinking "what the fuck makes me happy I say to myself in my head." So I think of a certain girl, she reads my blog regulary, I had "Alright alright" I say to myself as I pick up my pace. :Well what do you want to do to this girl?". I imagine myself taking her out on the date, some fancy restaurant and we feed either icecream at the end. We go for a walk on the riverfront board walk I picture in my head, while we hold hands. We end up kissing, I remember saying to myself after I imagined the kiss, "There is alot more were that come from." Gay I know but im trying to keep my mind off the pain in my legs, butt, and lungs. I just imagine myself getting it in with this certain girl. Bam I see the guy that was ahead of me, def gained ground on him he was about 75 meters ahead of me but I closed the gab big time. My mile time is not what It use to be, I ran 5:50 mile, I think that is good for not running the past 8 months. We ended up winning the race by a whole minute. By the way im almost home!!!!

Where to go??

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Tue, 18 Mar 2008 02:50:00 +0000

So I get a little over a month of vacation when I get home. I know its going to be good to be home. But man month of doing nothing I will get bored quick. That's why I'm thinking of taken a vacation somewhere. I Don't know where yet. Someplace I would like to go are the Philippines, and Ireland, but I have no one to go with. My family decides to leave me behind when they go on vacation to those 2 spots. But im thinking of Vegas are Hawaii. I got some peoples out there that I could stay with. I just know if I stay home for a month with out doing something ill prolly rip out my eyes. Iam a on the go guy now. Like it needs to happen now, I like to be on the move all the time. Just staying home man I can see myself getting bored really quick. I would like to travel out of country to those 2 spots, but I do not know anyone who has the money to go with me. I'm sure as hell not going by myself, that's just no fun.

Im days from home now I can smell the woman and the liquor, I want it all over me. But I elected myself is the DD that night. My reason why is you cant pick up woman if you shitfaced. So Im staying sober, I think its more important to please my sexual appetite then to get drunk. Do you blame me, sexless the past 15 months, I stay sorrounded by guys 24/7. God dammit im ready to get it in.

The board

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Wed, 12 Mar 2008 14:24:00 +0000

So today was the board, I put on my new uniform, put on my new boots. Did some last minute craming, went over the NCO Creed. I was good had a little butter flys in my stomach. So Sergent Duran was representing me he goes in to the board first and talks a little about me and why I should be a Sergent. Im outside the door nervous as fuck, but im jumping around throwing punches like im going in to a boxing match. But man when I knocked on that damn door 3 times I got nervous as fuck. I stroll in there ready to handle bussiness. Bam snap to postion of attention salute the Sergent Major and say my thing and take a seat. Yes I have a problem speaking in front of people, its always been one of my things . I was nervous sweating a little bit, fucked up on a few questions, I missed a few that I knew the anwser for and I couldnt think of them to after I left. But I passed the board with score of 147 out of 150. So soon to be Sergent Bourne here soon, with less then 24 months in the miltary, man its hard being a stud sometimes. Sergent Duran couldnt believe I missed some questions that I knew the anwser to. But I would like to thank him even though he doesnt read this, he been there for me he has had faith in me, he looks out for me. I love that guy. He could write a book on me and I could write one on him. But now that the board is done with I feel alot more at ease with myself.

Nervous!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 17:03:00 +0000

I head to the board tomorrow. Yes Im scared, I hate speaking in front of people, I get so nervous. Im going to pry to god tonight and ask him to help me pass this board.

TQ

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 06:02:00 +0000

So right now Im at this base called TQ, its a big base with a runway stip. Its a staging area for Marines and Soldiers and from here they push them out to there little bases. But from here we are going to be flying to Kuwait, then from there to either Ireland are Germany, then the mother fucking states. But all this is going to happen in about 2 and1/2 weeks. But when you stay on a big base you have ur pros and cons. The defac is huge but its the devil, ice cream bar OMG, they have a pizza buffet to die for. I so use to one hot meal a day now I can get 4. But the chow hall is a little less then a click away (less then 1000 meters). Also you have to travel in groups no less then 4, some Marine before we got here got in a accident becasue he was drunk, some bullshit like that. At night time we have to wear a reflector belt, yea alot of humvees and big 7 tons rolling by understandble. But they told us when we got hear stay in the right uniform. I would have to say Im one of the most undisplined soldiers in the platoon. Im always out of uniform, I hate shaving, I never have my boots bloosed, so me and big bases do not get along. I could get away with all this stuff on a platoon size base but not anymore.

Now that I have alot of free time on my hands I do PT twice a day. I go for a run at 6 in the morning somewhere between 3-5 miles and later on in the day I go to the gym. The gym is everything I wanted, all the weights all the machines I could ever dream of. Now my goal is not to get big just get cut up and tight, beach time in Georgia and in Florida is right around the corner. Plus I think Im turning in to a workout freak, and now I watch what I eat to. But I have one down side to all this, I smoke cigars like there is not tomorrow.

Whats Missing??

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Wed, 05 Mar 2008 15:38:00 +0000

So I been at another base without phone are internet. But we been replaced by the Marines now, not to impressed. But everyone is in a good mood, I mean why not. Handed over are battle space, no more patorls, ops, force pro. We packed are bags and are gear and moved out of the city to another base. We have less then a month in this cursed land, so why am I not excited about going home? I should be happy but im not. No im not going to miss this place, yes some of the funniest moments of my life were over here, along with the hardest. But WHY am I not excited about going home as everyone else is. I mean man I just spent the last 14 months away from home and im not excited about going home is everyone else.

When you spend alot of time with someone you can tell if something is wrong with them. Everyone been asking me "Bourne whats wrong?" I tell them nothing is wrong. They think it has to do with my wife. How she is not going to be there when I land, I think this could be it. Im not going to lie, but Im scared like im going to feel like a part of me is missing when I land in the states. But I keep telling myself, that part of you is no more. But im going to have my momma there when I land, and I know she is going to be glad to have her baby home. She wont have to worry no more about her son. I have a damn time limit now on the computer. I hate big bases. But I wish I could write more, but I most go.

Goal Reached!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Tue, 12 Feb 2008 03:56:00 +0000

So I was at the other base the one that gets motared all the damn time. I get off guard Sergent Duran runs over and says "hey lets go get it in!" Which means we going to the gym. It was a shoulder and leg day. I had my I pod and the speakers blasting my gangsta music all loud and I was feeling good. So I look at Sgt Duran and say "Im going to bench 300 lbs right now." So everyone starts getting curious coming over to watch, I warm up with 225 lbs, then I put on 300 lbs. I looked at it and said "man that bitch look heavy." I started to doubt my ablities, but I look at the crowd of people I wasnt about to make a fool out of myself. My squad leader was there, my Platoon Sergent was there. I said "fuck it lets go." So I get under it lift it up off the rack, as the bar is above me im staring at it saying to myself "Get it" So I bring the bar down as I inhale, I feel the bar touch my chest. Bam!!! I give everthing I have to push it up off my chest, I feel it raising slowly as im letting out the air from my lungs. I look at the bar and I see it going up, I can hear the screams from people "get it, you got it!" When I broke the half way point I realized that I had it. I hear people screaming "whooooooooo there you go!" I got it, I racked the bar, jumped up and started to jump and run around like an idiot, but I did not care. I had a goal and I reached it. We have this wall in our gym and spray painted on it is the 300 club, well my Platoon Sergent is up there, My work out partner is, and the LT. I said to my Platoon Sergent "300 club, Bourne" Out of 37 guys only 4 of us can bench that much weight. Iam the smallest guy with my name up on that wall. I weigh 174, give a few pounds. I dont take steriods, Just a protein shake and alot of tuna, by the way im running low on, not good. 300 CLUB BOURNE

Few people I would like to thank for helping me reach my goal.
SSG Kennedy-My main workout partner, we push either in the gym. Also a time were I was depressed and all I wanted to do was sleep you brought me back.

SGT Duran- My other workout partner, you will get were Kennedy and I are at one day. You helped with my depression and I thank you for that. "IM BACK"

XWIFE-I was down and out from your actions and the choices you made. I would like to thank you for making me stronger emotionally, and physically. You gave me motivation to be a better person/man. You sent me a email saying "I havent heard from you in a while.... everything ok? Everything is fine since you left me, and there is a reason why you havent heard from me in so long.

I found myself scared

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Sat, 09 Feb 2008 04:26:00 +0000

Ill be the first to admit it I do get scared when shit pops off, afterwards I find my right hand shaken. I have this sick feeling in my stomach. As everything going on I find myself fine, but its afterwards im just like "did that just happen?" Nothing really been happening in the past couple of months up till about a two weeks ago. The commander says we have the most active AO in the Al Anbar providence for the past two weeks, its not even killing season this is when insurgents are supposed to go in for the winter. Well this past week has been busy, IEDs in my platoons sector, improvised gernades, insurgents trying to over run the mayors house. The Iraqi police have enforced a curfew at 8:00. But its not the people in the city. I believe its people outside the city trying to casue all the bull, but all the roads coming in to the city have check points. The Iraqi police search all the vehicls coming into the city. My platoon has the job of manning two check points, we still have to run patrols, and pull guard at both check points. Some officer does not like our platoon. Well so Yesterday I had to go to the other check point, so the check point is closed, mayors orders. So im in the TOC , thats were the radios are. All of a sudden I hear a BOOM, I like to someone, "wow that was close". I hear one of the guard towers call up were taken "In Direct Fire" Next thing all these people take cover in the TOC. We have this camera thats sits on this tower, we see the motar rounds landing about 200 meters from in side the wire, one was 75 meters from hitting one of the guard towers dead on. So as all this is happening I call the company TOC up.

ME-Rage X Ray this is TCP 2

Rage X Ray- TCP 2 this is Rage X Ray go ahead

Me- Roger were takeing Indirect fire time now "break" Motar rounds hitting on the east side of the TCP "break" one motar round hit 50 meters from the wire "break" The other motar rounds are hitting north of the east market, approximately 75 meters off of Michigan " break" Towers and Gboss "the camera" unable to locate point of orgin "break" no caulties to report "over"

Rage X Ray said some other bull, but all that came out fast and quick as everything was happening, I found myself breaking down the information. It it important to report it to higher, communication is key. After it all happend I found my hand shaking. I think no matter how many times I go through it, Im going to find myself nervous, and shaking. I dont think its ever going to come natural to me. I tell you I see some fucked up shit, sometimes when I lay down at night I think about some of the things I see and done. I dont like to talk about it, my brother was in Afganstian, I dont think I will ever share war stories with him. If he feel the need to tell me to get it off his chest, I will listen. But most people when they tell the stories, they make it out to sound like world war 3. They make it out harder then what it really was. I tell you just how it went down. On another note my packet has been handed in to go to the board, I was like at my ERB- Enlisted Record something, it shows your whole military career. yea I have a Arcom bascially doing something outstanding.

Going to the board

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Wed, 06 Feb 2008 07:33:00 +0000

So I was in the gym last night with my work out team. I work out with the Lt, a Staff Sergent, and Sergent Duran. Well Sgt Duran told me last night Im going to the board around the 20th of March. I have always had a problem speaking in front of people. The board is made up of First Sergents and Sergent Majors, basically my boss's. So now that I know Im going for sure, I started studying. I have the Army study guide on my computer, and its over 200 pages. I have to study it all. So on my free time instead of blogging I will be studying. I look foward to just getting it out of the way. So Sgt Duran told me if I volnteer to come back here with 4th birgade that I would not be going to the board. So Im just going to stay state side. That pay jump is to good to pass up. Now that I have something thats prolly going to take up most of my time, I wont be missing home as much. If I pass this board I will feel like the man, life has thrown some tough shit at me, I read about peoples problems, people tell me about there problems and I just laugh and say "thats it?"I feel like I can take on the mother fucking world, the train is back on the track. Im starting to think im coming out of the tunnel in to the light.

Someone there for me?

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 19:29:00 +0000

You ever just want someone to talk to about your problems. For 8 months of this deployment I had someone I could call. Talk to them about my problems, look to them for advice, tell them about my day. But that person being my x wife abandon me over 5 months ago. Now I feel like I have nobody to call, I feel like nobody cares what im going through. Yea I call my momma up to let her know im doing good, and remind her that im bullet and IED proof, im jk. But I guess Im just so use to having someone to talk, someone there for me, someone who loved me now its gone. somedays I would just like to call someone tell them all about my problems get it off my chest, vent. But just like that its gone. Im finding this hard to explaine, but im sure you have to know were im coming from.
But in other news we should be leaving the city we are in charge of around the 27 of FEB, which is good I guess. But from there we will move to another base and sit there for around 3 weeks doing nothing. But I would much rather be working, it makes the time go by quicker. Also there is talks about me going to the board to get promoted in the month of March. I was a team leader for most of the deployment, but politics sent down someone higher ranking then me and he replaced me. But Im a much better team leader then he is. But me going to the board if I pass I will be promoted to Sergent. With less then 2 1/2 years in the army, to be promoted that fast is really good. But what can I say im the man, wait im a stud. Not cocky just confident.
So today we had a dismount patrol, the kids asking for football, chocolate, pencil. They just keep asking and asking. The kids that dont ask I usually give them stuff. So im walking down I see this little girl, it breaks my heart the life she goes through, she is standing there and bunch of mother fuckers with guns are walking down her street, not to mention she falls asleeps to gun fire and the sounds of explosions. She will prolly be married at the ago of 15 years old and her life is over. She will be a slave, they have a saying over here for the Iraqi men "woman are for babies, men are for pleasure." I know right. But when I walked by the little girl I gave her my only pen that I had on me. The smile that she had put a smile on my face, as I continued on down the street I turned around and I see her showing the pen to her father. Now she can do her school work. Pens and Pencils are hard to come by over here. This country is a long way off, but it is alot better then what it was when I first got here.

Working Out

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 16:31:00 +0000

Hard Work at the gym

Results

My workout partner wanted me to take pics of him so he could send them to his wife. Well I told him to take a few of me so I can put it on my blog. My Lt thinks im on steriods, crazy guy I dont need that. I take protein shakes, but I mostly eat tuna. Its high on protein. Most important its good for your heart. Thats why Im so kind hearted.

Smut Meme

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 14:31:00 +0000

Rules and Regulations: Tagged or not, feel free to post it on your blog (the more the merrier). Title your post the Smut Meme, outline the rules, and tag two people when you're through. Please link to whoever you've tagged, so we can see just how smutty your readers are.Okay. Let's see how smutty I am. I was tagged by OestreBunny.

1. Chocolate or whipped cream? Whipped cream less messy.

2. Leather or PVC? Leather? How about nothing.

3.Outdoor sex or indoor sex? How about sex anywhere.

4. In the jacuzzi or in the bed? I done it in a bed to many times, I think its time to try the jacuzzi.

5. Bad sex or no sex? Bad sex, bad sex is better then no sex.

6. Dominate or be dominated? I perfer to dominate, but like to be dominated sometimes

7. Thigh highs or body stockings? I think thigh high stockings would be sexy.

8. Fast or slow? Fast, like a rappit.

9. Rough or gentle? How about both.

10. Bite or suck? Depends what spot of the body im on.

11. Role play or reality? Never really done role play, so Im going to have to try that.

12. Dirty talking: coming or going? I guess a some dirty talking is not bad.

13. Edible panties or no panties at all? No panties at all.

14. Spanking paddle or bare hand? Bare hand like to leave me hand print on that booty.

15. Landing strip or Kojak? Regardless im still going down.

16. Multiple sessions or one good fuck? Multiple sessions of good fucking.

17. Moaning or screaming? Moaning, screaming just seems to fake.

18. Three-way or no way? Id do a three way, its actually one of my goals before I die.

19. Swing or no swing? Let me see, NO SWING.

I Tag systa and revelergirl

Soon Cliff Soon!

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 14:07:00 +0000

So the battalion commander came by are base today to talk about going home. So the whole platoon was gathered around the fire and he comes rolling up. We all jump to attention, let me tell you one thing about are battalion commander, he does not like are platoon at all. Since the begnning of the deployment he has disliked us. From people not shaving, not being in the right uniform, some other things I dont want to get in to. He came up to me one time because my hair was way to long and went and told my Lt and Platoon Sergent, Bournes hair is way to long. Well he started to talk about dates when we going to be home. Now I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I still have a job to do and im going to try to keep that in my head. So the dates he put out he says he is like 90% sure we are going to be leaving around that time. So he was giving his speech and some people said somethings and he looked around at us like we had idiots written across are forehead. But when we land we have to go threw all these stupid tests that should take up to ten days. After them 10 days we get to go home, home. Where my family is, and he said you should be home before the 16th of April. That is my Bday, I dont rember the last birthday I spend home was, but im like 90% sure im going to be home for my birthday. Just typing that puts a smile to my face. I can honestly say this is the happest I been since I been here, I dont know if its becasue the end of this deployment is almost up, are I just dont care about whats going on back home. I feel real good.

Snow day #2

noreply@blogger.com (Cliff) — Wed, 23 Jan 2008 18:29:00 +0000

So It snowed onces again here, but we had heat this time. So I get off my guard shift, and I go and lay down on my bed and started jammin out to Usher, then about 20 minutes later someone comes in all covered in snow. "What the FUCK" were the first words out my mouth. So I go outside there is about 3 inches of snow all over the ground. "God damn" were the words that I kept repeating to myself, so everyone startes taking pictures again, like its the first freakin time it snowed here. So what happens when there is snow on the ground, freakin snowball fight, So me and my cuz called a truce, it was pretty dark so we ran around the humvee and pegged the first person we saw. Well it was the Platoon Sergent, "oh fuck" but he was like "ill get you back Bourne". So it was game on the snow was coming down hard we turned on the big lights and had the biggest snowball fight. All you saw were the thick snow flakes and snowballs flying in the air. One person in my squad has video footage of some of the snowball fight, ill see about getting it up tomorrow. But it was crazy, a war zone. So naturally there is 2 sides , we throwing snowballs across this open field at either. Well someone decides to run across the middle. I said to myself, "Im going to get him" So I was about 50 meters away, I zoomed him in, winged my snowball, then BAM right in his face. I did not mean to hit him in the face, So I run over and his nose is bleeding pretty bad. LOL, it was pretty funny, we have it on camera. So after about an hour of heavy running, everyone is pretty much worn out. My arm is thrown out, my elbow is throbing like a mother.
So the next day snow starts melting mud all over the place just nasty. The gym is pretty much covered in snow, I was looking fowarding to going to. But we have these big tents that we got from another base, So we lay it out, and nobody knows how to put it up, WOW. We all know how to react to contact, we can land nav in the middle of the desert, but we dont know how to put up this tent, I done it onces but man that was a minute ago. But we figured something out, and its over the gym right now, so we can work it when it rains or snows now, that is good. So after we finished than another damn snowball fight, this time it was 2 hours. My elbow was hurting so bad I had to take some meds, I can throw out my arm so easy, my elbow been fucked up since freshman year of highschool. I messed it up playing football. Sometimes it hurts out of the blue, other days its good.
So at night time a bunch of us sit around the fire talk about home. So they say "Bourne you find a rebound girl yet?" Now I been thinking about that for a while. I dont want to be a shady guy that uses a girl just for a rebound. I told them "I dont need rebound girl, becasue this kid is not down and out anymore." Im starting to realize that there is so much better out there for me, I blamed myself for the longest. She blamed me for her cheating on me, Some how I believed her. But I dont need a weak woman in my life, and one who brings drama and negativity in to it. When I do start talking to someone, if anything its a step up from what I had before, thats why its not a rebound. I can honestly say I dont love her anymore, im not lying to myself to make myself feel better, thats the mother freaking truth. But I tell you one thing, Ill settle down one day, when I meet that woman who I see for the first time and knocks me head over heals, just by me looking at her. Its happend to me onces a long time ago,and I havent talked to her since highschool.